Bittersweet
I wanna know why. Why does he always come to me. Why do I let it happen? Whenever things go wrong with the girlfriend or they’re broken up, he comes to me. And I have no idea why. It’s not like I have sex with him. We just talk. He brings back all these memories and it makes me feel like I wanna be with him again. And of course when I get used to having him in my life again things get better with her and he forgets about me. Does it happen because I allow it to happen? I really don’t understand; I never will.
I’ve never thought of myself as second best, so why do I always allow myself to become someone else’s second best. I deserve to be someone’s first choice. No matter what people say being second place feels like shit. I’m done being second place. I have no idea when, even if it’s not anytime soon I’m gonna be first choice for someone. Fuck man.
